FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK SO HUNNGRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY 

So I got my feelings hurt and now I'm overreacting on Geoff and I hate myself sometimes so much that I just want to leave for somewhere and never tell anybody where I went.

I'm just so goddamn lonely and nothing can ever fix it, it seems.

I really really really wish I had friends.

I want to drive home but my mom would freak out if I showed up so late.

Last night was my final radio show and it went completely fine and I didn't panic/throw up/run off. It was probably because Hannah was there for support and everything suddenly seemed extremely simple. Idk either way that stupid stupid stupid class is over FOREVER.

Usually I update my LJ more frequently but my dorm internet has been fucking screwy. That and I really don't have that much to complain about. There are things that kind of suck a LOT (ex. I almost failed this semester, I lost my scholarship, my food plan is out, my roommate is moving, finals week) but somehow it's not affecting me that much. I'm happy with Geoffrey and I'm happy that it's cold and almost Christmas.

I've been playing SO MUCH Kirby Super Star Ultra on my DS, it's pretty dorky and hilarious. But it is SO FUN and cute as hell and aaah.

And you know, there is nothing more satisfying than shaving your legs after not shaving them for almost two months! Smooth legs, yesss.

That is all. :)

I haven't updated in a while because absolutely nothing is going the way I want it to and I'm unhappy about a lot of things.

I feel as if I am going to explode and it is not a great feeling.

So until I have something of substance to update about, here is the ~controversial survey~ on political views, values, ect.

( controversy? )

Instead of making a list of bullshit New Year's Resolutions, I decided to do 101 in 1001. This is my list of 101 goals that I want to accomplish in 1001 days to better my life. If you're interested in making one too or just confused, go to jan1_2008.

Some of these are silly, some short-term, and some seem pointless, but I really like this list and I really hope to accomplish as much as I can of it to become more mature, happier, more experienced, and cultured.

Starting: January 1st, 2008
Ending: September 28th, 2010

Name: Melanie
Age (start to finish): 17-20
Location: Springdale, Arkansas (Though this will change in the timespan.)